Reflection - pre thanksgiving
- It is so unreal to me to think that I'm only three months into my in-school service at MS 302. To be honest, it feels much, much longer, but I don't mean that in a bad way. I actually mean that in a good way, if that makes sense. I feel so close to my teammates, so much so that I can't believe that I really only met them in August. It feels like I've known them for years, and they've really become my New York family and that makes me insanely grateful.
- It's also crazy to me that I've only known my kids for three months. I feel like I know them so well now, because I spend SO MUCH time with them every week. However, I never thought that I'd love these kids as much as I do. That may seem bad to say, but I'm surprised myself. My kids are awesome, sometimes they have off days, most of my days are hard, but I could never say that I don't care about my kids. I think I care too much, if anything.
- This kind of brings me to today, which felt really special, and I didn't think that'd be the case when I came in the morning. The day started with a teacher and staff appreciate breakfast headed up by my City Year team, it went soooo well! We had a good turn out, insane amounts of food, and the happiest staff and teachers for the rest of the day. Then, I had a typical math class, and I got to do some private tutoring with one of my ESL students (which was very positive). At 6th grade lunch, one of the girls from another class grabbed me to talk to me about loooove. I was pretty honored to be the selected City Year member, and I just tried to frame everything positively and make sure she was heard... But I was really happy to be that person for her and that she trusted me. It made me proud of my past self for taking the time a few weeks ago to talk her out of fighting (that day) with one of her classmates. Then, I had a couple of periods off(team meeting and prep).
- When I got back to my class for ELA, I realized that they were doing their weekly debate from the Word Generation program. This week's topic was something that is particularly close to my heart - national service. The question they were debating was whether or not the government should implement a mandatory year of service following American youth's high school graduation. So, for the first time in my class, I got to go really in-depth with my students about City Year and my role as a corps member. I got to do a full Q&A with them. I got to be honest. It was awesome, and I was amazed at how engaged they were in the conversation about City Year and national service. I love it when my kids tell me that thy want to be a City Year too. It shows me that they're thinking ahead with their goals, and is already putting them on track to graduate high school - which is what City Year is all about. It was so cool to see how their relationship with me kind of framed the conversation. I also liked hearing them discuss the positive aspects of service in their community. It was just really happy, almost overwhelmingly so for me. I don't know if any other day has been as satisfying as this one. Not saying that other days aren't satisfying, this one was just a stand out to me. It was really the push that I needed to get me through December.
- To put things simply: I'm always tired. I'm almost always happy. My kids are the best. My team is the best.